Marry Me

Have you heard this song by train? "Marry Me" Jake has been sending me songs that remind him of me, or that he thinks I would like, he sent me this one the other day. I had heard it before and liked it, but now that I know Jake thinks of me when he listens to it, I just can't stop listening to it.

I love that it says "Marry me, today and every day." Because the truth is I didn't just make a commitment to marry jake on June 5th, 2010. That was just the day I made it a public vow. I make a commitment to be his wife, every single day. When I wake up in the morning I make the choice to be his wife, to be what he needs me to be. Some days I do better at that job than others, I'm not trying to claim that I'm some perfect fabulous wife at all. I am just saying that I've recognized that being married is about a daily commitment to each other.

Lately I have struggled with the fact that there are so many broken marriages out there. I try every single day to strive to be the best wife I can possibly be for Jake (again, sometimes I'm not the best wife, but that doesn't mean I don't try) and so I have tried to educate myself on what I can do to be better for him. However, I feel like so many of the resources out there for becoming a better wife, are for failing or struggling marriages, they are for fixing something thats broken. At this point in our marriage we aren't there. And I pray to our good Lord every day, that we won't ever get there. I'm looking to learn how to strengthen the unbroken. I want to learn about what I can do to prevent that from happening, not what to do once it does happen. I understand that we are just newlyweds, and I'm not saying we are better than any other couple, I just thrive on optimism. I refuse to let my marriage struggle because all the books say it's going to. On top of all the marriage books I have looked into, and the other couples I have talked to, I have Army related people telling me doom and gloom stories for us as well. I am sick of hearing that  we won't be in love anymore when he comes home. or that it won't be a happy time. I fully accept that I might be being naive, but please just let me live in the fact that I have a very happy marriage. Because at this point in my life, I have very little else that is as important to me, than the work and effort I put into my marriage, so it's really hard to hear that so many write it off so easily. Jake and I are both in this for the long haul, so I pray that those that are jaded and cynical will have their hearts softened, and their opinions kept to themselves.